wench77 - 2004-11-17 14:51:07
Hey there sweetie! Sorry it has been so hard, and yeah, that mixture of working/ not working and the resentment as well as issues of insecurity, self-blame and defensiveness it breeds, not to mention the simple fact of having no $$ is a deadly mixture for relationships. It is SOOO hard. Just know that sort of thing is hard for EVERYONE and that you are not alone in that, in both of you feeling incompetent and out of control. Sounds like you are just totally overwhelmed by life right now AND have no private space. Thanks for sharing it with us. We can't help all that much but we can be supportive for you. Doesn't sound like anyone's fault, but highstress all round. If you need to vent not on a diary, you have my email. I"m perfectly fine with bitching, cuz i know it's not how much you love CP but rather you need to blow off somewhere. I really really hope something picks up soon and the universe gives you a break... a good job for CP, a large corset contract for you, a sudden windfall to take care of your mom and sister, something. You need and deserve it. Huge ferocious hugs. You are so hardworking and loving and doing your very best. xxwenchie
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avalonte - 2004-11-18 05:39:43
Hi Lovely! I'm so sorry life is so shitty at the moment! But I'm sure things will turn around soon. As Wench said, there's not much we can do to help other than be here for you as support. Please use us when you need us!! And if you ever need any help on you website or anything, I'd be happy to help out, to save you a bit of time. Anyway, take care, and just think how satisfied you'll be when everything starts paying off. You'll have truly earned it! *hugs* to you and CP! xx
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Kathy - 2004-11-18 06:08:07
Sorry you are feeling so dwon. Hope things look up soon! xoxox Kathy
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